Uncertainties

i hate uncertainties.
2 days ago i received a really bad news.
a news that was meant to determine the path that i shall take after this; my future as per se.

and i thought i could get over and not be saddened over this news yesterday.
and there was a party. there was whole bunch of really nice people. then there was a campfire. everything was perfect. i wasn't bored. i had fun.
but still, it couldn't change the fact that the new has indeed turned my world upside down.

i don't even have the mood to blog about the party that was so awesome now.

i was supposed to bound for somewhere else when i got back in msia in aug, for good. i was supposed to. i didn't plan. but somehow it was something that was supposed to happen. i was glad that i'm heading towards thing that i so really want and eager to do. there was a hope. back then at least.
the news really blew me up somehow.

now, my future is doomed. and is filled with these whole bunch of craps and uncertainties that i have to deal with.

one thing for sure, my main option and priority has to be crossed out permanently.
and i'm really really sad about this whole thing.

option B, start sending out my resumes in july. be prepared to work. for if IF i'm lucky enough to get a job. uncertainties kill. really.

i have got no mood even to swear now.

i wish i'm a smart professional graduate. instead of someone who stupidly did english for her major. of all the things, why english? why not something else?! really pekchek. sien. now say anything also useless. stress.

with just a snap, everything is gone. and because of some ridiculous unforeseen circumstances everything just got screwed.

and now, i'm basically a jobless graduate who has no bright future.

the news hit me so bad. it basically screws my holidays.

and to wpeng, i need a job. and tell me how and where shall i start?
(and i couldn't add any comments for ur blog entries. u'll have to check out the setting for your comment and all cos it says only group members can add or something. hope ur grandma is ok now.)

i'm bound to work.
like it or not. love it or not. that's the way it is.

learn to accept it. i know.
i will, i guess. one day.