Saturday, 24 October 2009
Wednesday, 16 September 2009
betrayed.
tonight again, i looked at that particular pic. again and again.
and keep thinking. why.
we were once, so close to each other.
we were once, good friends.
how can a picture of that, determines the level of our friendship.
i know.
but somehow, i feel betrayed.
and perhaps, that's the reason why the gift was left unattended for as long as i remember.
there were moments of awkwardness during catch ups over msn.
even the simplest i miss you! sounded so sham and deceitful.
did i really missed?
it hurts when you find out that a person who meant so much to you never really treasure you
and whatever you believed before this, was and had long snarled and tangled into a bun of scepticism.
i'm holding on to the only belief. that that friendship of ours was there, before.
and i'm glad i met you. although i may not know you as much as i thought i know, but at least i'm still holding on strongly, those memories that we once shared together.
we parted, and we move on.
on a lighter note,
at least i've bunch of many others,
who treasure me as much as i treasure them.
these, are the people who are called genuine friends.
and keep thinking. why.
we were once, so close to each other.
we were once, good friends.
how can a picture of that, determines the level of our friendship.
i know.
but somehow, i feel betrayed.
and perhaps, that's the reason why the gift was left unattended for as long as i remember.
there were moments of awkwardness during catch ups over msn.
even the simplest i miss you! sounded so sham and deceitful.
did i really missed?
it hurts when you find out that a person who meant so much to you never really treasure you
and whatever you believed before this, was and had long snarled and tangled into a bun of scepticism.
i'm holding on to the only belief. that that friendship of ours was there, before.
and i'm glad i met you. although i may not know you as much as i thought i know, but at least i'm still holding on strongly, those memories that we once shared together.
we parted, and we move on.
on a lighter note,
at least i've bunch of many others,
who treasure me as much as i treasure them.
these, are the people who are called genuine friends.
Tuesday, 18 August 2009
how would you feel if your mom took your newly bought shorts/dress/whatever to wash when you urgently need to wear that particular shorts/dress/whatever?
how would you feel knowing that it would not be able to dry in time now that the washing machine is still taking its sweet time spinning and spinning around while you on the other hand, need to be out in a while?
really FML.
how would you feel knowing that it would not be able to dry in time now that the washing machine is still taking its sweet time spinning and spinning around while you on the other hand, need to be out in a while?
really FML.
Wednesday, 5 August 2009
patience
i'm quite patient with stuff. but not on certain stuff.
4thsissoh is mad at me for something that i said which i swear i have no any malicious intentions towards anything and of which she misinterpreted and now she's mad at me and my plan to getting my starbucks while waiting for her to get her hair chopped is ruined now.
le sigh.
say something, wrong. no say something, wrong also.
archuacho aneh... cham.
brendan asked me if i could be more patient with him from time to time. (i get annoyed and lose my patience easily when we are in the midst of conversations)
i guess he's the only one that could provoke me to lose my patience easily.
the reason is :with anybody else, i could and would always need to bear with everything and could not lose my temper nor my patience nor my anger easily since i need to be the one who gives in all the time to avoid any major conflicts. and why must we be angry with the people around us right for no reasons right? i don't see a reason to simply lose my patience etc.
it's a different case with brendan, as with him, i can always get angry first, and still be forgiven later.
so that explains the extent of bearable patience i could bear with anything, anyone else, except him. i mean to say i'm quite durable and flexible with stuff. but sometimes, i do get angry and annoyed TOO. i'm human! WOMAN to be exact. and who gets pms once a month so to speak! (no, not having pms now)
why can't i be angry with anyone who makes me angry sometimes?
why must i nio everyone who rarely nio me?
why.
mrS keeps saying that being the youngest, i should nio and bear with it. but...
WHY.
i'm in the midst of tidying up my messy room now.
found a receipt from shokudo heeren.
damn. i miss that place.
they have the bestest and freshest sushi and softshell crabs ever!
and the bestest thick macha drink ever!!
gee. they have the best jap food ever!!!
no pictures of the food that we had as it didn't cross my mind to take pics of the food that time cause was too busy catching up with siewwen. and i was to tired at that time. too much of walking. and my feet hurt like shits. i never wear that pair of shoes since then. too horrified with the horrid experience!
i wish i can get those food to cheer me up now. and to make everyone a happier person. wtf.
4thsissoh is mad at me for something that i said which i swear i have no any malicious intentions towards anything and of which she misinterpreted and now she's mad at me and my plan to getting my starbucks while waiting for her to get her hair chopped is ruined now.
le sigh.
say something, wrong. no say something, wrong also.
archuacho aneh... cham.
brendan asked me if i could be more patient with him from time to time. (i get annoyed and lose my patience easily when we are in the midst of conversations)
i guess he's the only one that could provoke me to lose my patience easily.
the reason is :with anybody else, i could and would always need to bear with everything and could not lose my temper nor my patience nor my anger easily since i need to be the one who gives in all the time to avoid any major conflicts. and why must we be angry with the people around us right for no reasons right? i don't see a reason to simply lose my patience etc.
it's a different case with brendan, as with him, i can always get angry first, and still be forgiven later.
so that explains the extent of bearable patience i could bear with anything, anyone else, except him. i mean to say i'm quite durable and flexible with stuff. but sometimes, i do get angry and annoyed TOO. i'm human! WOMAN to be exact. and who gets pms once a month so to speak! (no, not having pms now)
why can't i be angry with anyone who makes me angry sometimes?
why must i nio everyone who rarely nio me?
why.
mrS keeps saying that being the youngest, i should nio and bear with it. but...
WHY.
i'm in the midst of tidying up my messy room now.
found a receipt from shokudo heeren.
damn. i miss that place.
they have the bestest and freshest sushi and softshell crabs ever!
and the bestest thick macha drink ever!!
gee. they have the best jap food ever!!!
no pictures of the food that we had as it didn't cross my mind to take pics of the food that time cause was too busy catching up with siewwen. and i was to tired at that time. too much of walking. and my feet hurt like shits. i never wear that pair of shoes since then. too horrified with the horrid experience!
i wish i can get those food to cheer me up now. and to make everyone a happier person. wtf.
Thursday, 30 July 2009
60
60 more days to go.
le sigh..
i need to start joltin down stuff.
i need to start appreciate the remaining 60 days.
le sigh..
i need to start joltin down stuff.
i need to start appreciate the remaining 60 days.
Sunday, 26 July 2009
just back from watching harry potter.
albus dumbledore passed away. :'( ( i knew it was an ending for him in Harry Potter and The Half Blood Prince but still, it was such a sad ending for dumbledore!)
and now i just got a sms from 4thsissoh saying yasmin ahmad passed away earlier!!!!!!!! noooooo!!!!!! sigh.
it's a great loss to the country. :'(
first it was michael jackson, then dumbledore, then yasmin ahmad. whywhywhy. why must all these legends all be gone!
restinpeace,great people.
albus dumbledore passed away. :'( ( i knew it was an ending for him in Harry Potter and The Half Blood Prince but still, it was such a sad ending for dumbledore!)
and now i just got a sms from 4thsissoh saying yasmin ahmad passed away earlier!!!!!!!! noooooo!!!!!! sigh.
it's a great loss to the country. :'(
first it was michael jackson, then dumbledore, then yasmin ahmad. whywhywhy. why must all these legends all be gone!
restinpeace,great people.
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