Back at home.

thanks to the superbly slow internet connection back home, i have not been able to logon as frequently as before. and that means, my daily routines have been jumbled up. =S
finally i have packed my bags home, leaving the place where i spent my last three years.
i'm actually a bit berat hati (se bu de) to leave.
but when it's time to leave, you leave.
there isn't much you can do.

i had my mrS and mdmY over in penang to help me pack my stuffs and all that and came back to kuching with them.
admist being superbly drained out, the overall last few days in penang was well-spent i would say.
my last night in penang... knowing the fact that that was my last night in penang..was absolutely heartbreaking. spent my whole night reminiscing how my 3 years went by in penang till i dozed off and left my haruki murakami untouched on the desk next to the bed.

the hotel was awesome, despite the fact that they don't have a restaurant. i like the bathroom, lots. like the showerhead. the king sized bed. and the scenery from the hotel was... superb. we stayed at the top most floor, the 19th floor. and the scenic view from the hotel at night was memesrizing.
i slept at the sofa bed on the first night. and the later 2 nights, dad insisted i sleep with them on the bed which i did, despite the much protests i put up with. ;)

the moment the plan touched down at KIA (kuching international airport), instead of feeling thrill and excited like how i've always feel when i got back from penang (like you know how u anticipate to come back to your hometown after a much long-awaited period..) but then on monday, it was the total opposite, i was just feeling just so so..
sometimes i wonder, i have made this decision, but why am i feeling this way?

i am actually feeling a bit glad that the stupid internet connection back home is still working.
although the connection is like so superbly damn slow, but.. still i shouldn't be complaining. at least it's working.
i can't get broadband yet. as i wouldn't be here for the next 3 months.
so still..gotta wait til august... arghh. =(

i can't wait to book my airtic to kl. yeah.. i've decided to spend some days in kl with some friends and pay a visit to an aunt of mine before leaving for penang in mid of august.
was thinking to spend some time going after that cause i seriously don't know what i should do yet..
so i really hope mid sem break will be around so i can drag a few persons to do some backpacking trips with me.

i developed some of the redang pics i tookby using the underwater disposable camera.
all the pictures turned out really bad. and i was really disappointed.
but anyways, what to do right.

salma M and wpeng will be coming over to kucing on 1.5.
so gonna be busy til 5.5.
2 more weeks to go before i depart for a yet to be dislosed trip.

shower time.
blog next time.

Redang

tell me tell me. how can i not love this place.. ?!

candid shot. ok, mayb not. i posed for my room mate to take this pic. :D
but the angle doesn't seem right. :(
look at my terribly and badly sunburnt flabby arms!

me and thy room mate.
look at the sunburnt me.

another big humongous gigantic swing!! love it. i love swings too!
pic was taken by a stranger who occupied the swing for like hours.
i walked up to him and his companion (a guy) and told him, 'sir, can you excuse a bit? i would like to take a picture with the swing!'

and he had no choice but to be a gentleman and took the pic for us. =)

taken with my room mate's olympus. i don't like olympus.
look at the quality of the pic... sigh..
best still is nikon, canon or sony!

me happily posing for this pic. i was really excited and happy at that very moment. =D
i miss those times.. :(

hammock oh hammock. thy queen loves you so!!! :(

me thyself.
look at the sand. look at the beach. look at it. look at it. lord. i love it.

sad pic.. cannot see the water... but more more inn was behind.. :D

shiok sendiri.
took this pic by myself cause everyone elses were too busy taking pics of the inn.

i guess my blog's getting boring.
it's all about redang redang and more of redang.
i'm sorry but i can't resist not to talk nor blog about it.
and a note to STP, thy queen needs your advice on the padi scuba diving thing.
let me know once u're done with what u're supposed to do now (like rushing for you fyp and stuffs..)

Tired.

finally done with my last and final paper. it was tough. and i didn't know how to do.
disappointed with myself.
why am i so stupid? :(

i'm tired and my brain's toasted.

i wish i've a hammock here.
so i can sit back and chill.

i miss redang.
i miss REDANG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sunburnt

missey me was in redang.

and redang was superb.

i love the whole place. the scenery. the beach. the sea. the islands. and everything.
the whole place left me in awe. and i can't wait to go back there again. if there's a chance. if.

went with a bunch of people, of whom 6 out of 24/26 people, i only know 6 of them. majority was my roommate's coursemates.
been wanting to go there. so i don't really mind going there with bunch of strangers. cause the main purpose to be there and enjoy.
the trip in overall was superb. and i got to know several nice people.

for the first time, i really let my hair down and enjoyed the whole time whilst i was there. there wasn't even a time for me to think about any worries and stuffs. all i did was just sit back and enjoy.
except the fact that on the 18th morning, worries and guilt flowed in as i didn't know how to call back home and wish mdmY happy birthday. there was no connection. no line. no nothing.
(and somehow 4th sistasoh called and msged me yesterday and told me that mom's sad cause 2nd and 3rd sistasoh didn't call back and wish her happy birthday too. :( so i had to explain stuffs and reasons that i didn't call back.)

love and enjoy resting in hammocks.
at night. in the morning. in the evening. whenever i could steal some time off alone. to enjoy the gentle breeze, the prestine scenery, the boats by the beach, the beach itself, the sea, the moon, the scorching hot sun. basically everything.
but i forgot to bring a book with me. :(
so not having any books with me, all i did was to sit back and enjoy everything.
it would be nice to have a company too..
imagine this:
having someone resting in the hammocks next to you under the moon. no need to talk. just keep quiet and just sit back and relax and enjoy the peaceful environment, the quietness and most importantly, to enjoy each other's company.
that would be nice and lovely, isn't it?
sweet i would say.
i wouldn't want to leave. i swear.

i wanna get scuba diving license.
don't really like snorkeling. and dislike wearing the life jacket to bits! but i had to put on it. not until when i was allowed by the guard who brought us around that i could take off the jacket so i immediately took it off when i was in the midst of snorkeling and never to wear it again. cause it's so damn ma huan and so uncomfortable. and once i took it off, i managed to dive into the sea, once with ahlong, the guard and another time with another guard.
alas, not satisfied still. best is if i can go scuba diving!

i'm now so dark and tanned and sunburnt.
and it's gonna take a while for the tanned to go away.
it's all worth it i guess.

my coursemate asked me to go back to her kampong back in kedah tomorrow after my exam. and i promised her.
but now i havn't packed my stuffs. and i havn't got the time to get the boxes and stuffs.
sigh.. guess i couldn't make it anymore.

i'm physically drained and exhausted.
and left part of me in redang.
i need to do my revision, i know.
but can i just go to sleep and dream of redang and recall those lovely memories that i brought back with me?
i'm too malas to revise.
perhaps i should catch a short nap. a short one.

i've fallen in love...
with redang.

ps: more updates on redang when i've more free time to do so and provided i've the mood to write.

7th.

it's dadadarling's 7th month anniversary. :(
miss her heaps stil. T_T
miss touching her face.
miss rummaging my fingers through her furs.
and had her head put on my thighs. T_T
adasoh, luv u to bits and we miss you still..
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i had my 4th major paper yesterday, my last major paper.
and it was damn tough.

initially i wanted to wake up like real late today as i hadn't be able to sleep well since finals started last week.
despite the fact that i was awaken by noises (as usual) and alarm, i tidor balik and even then had my brain going through the question paper and the questions that i answered, the way i answered the questions and all. and i found out i did one mistake. major mistake to be exact. and i woke up immediately feeling damn awful and SAD. :'(

yesterday's paper was really tough. it was a linguistic paper comprising three major components: syntax, semantics and pragmatics.
2 questions each for each section. and one outta the two questions for first and third sections, got like 4 cabangs, and in the third section, there were 2 cabangs for the first question and one 100 marks for the 2nd question and i attempted the latter one which i regretted. but i had no choice cause it seemed that i could only do the first half for the first question. even then, i wasn't really sure of the answers too. so i attempted the 2nd one..

and i couldn't finish answering the questions for semantics. damn sad okie dahlah don't know how to do. :(

computational linguistic was so damn tough also. so also as testing and evaluation. sigh. and AND that elizabethan lit too. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh really feel like dying now!

really hope i can pass.. but for sure my cgpa gonna be like so damn low already. T_T

"pls lord, i really nid to pass all the papersssssssssssss.. i swear i didn't sleep when i sat for all the papers.. ok mayb i did.. for the first paper.. but only for awhile.. and you should really take that into account because this is my first time i didn't sleep during exams throughout my 3-yr undergrad uni life... so puhlezzee... :( "

so anyways, i watched definitely maybe. it was nice. i like the storyline. and it makes me wonder. stuffs. ahem. storyaside. need no more elaborations here.

so yeah, one more day and i shall be away for a couple of days. hopefully i can stop and quit thinking about my finals and just chill kau kau.

and i seriously need a real good cam..

i checked out the disposable underwater camera from kodak, it cost like rm45 and can take 27 pics.
then right, there's another underwater housing for cameras which cost like rm350. but right for this one, it lasts you for life. i might opt for the first one since it's cheaper and plus, i don't think i'll go snorkeling or whatnots like all the time. so mayb it's not worth it. but i do wish it's cheaper, like rm100 or less than rm150. else i would have bought it right away. why must it be so expensive? doh.

i never like to go pc fair. but just when i want to buy:
1. sd cards - 3rd sistasoh forgot to return me my 1gb sd card and i only left sd cards with 3 gbs altogether. =( ;

2. cam batts -i have like 3 sets of nikon coolpix batts but right 2 sets are cacat now and the new set which i started using like on 25.12 when i went to sg, also become siawsiaw already now sien! i dont know why i must get the same brand as the camera instead of getting the kind of rechargeable batteries from energizer or gp, sigh why am i so cacaat?;

3. a new headset - the one i got for free when i bought my lappy, last me for like 2 and a half years, and is now broken into 3 parts but still can be used though it's so damn mafan;

4. and tonnes of other things.

but right, it is held on the 18th this time, when i would not be here in penang at all! how to buylah like that. sien. :(

so many things to do. i gotta do the packings. and i seriously don't know where to buy boxes near my place! it's so convenient, NOT. i wish i stay near hostels/much nearer to uni. :(

so malaas to write/type now.
in fact, i'm running out of stuffs to blog.

my blogs damn dull. wtf.

Teardrops

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without
Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's so damn funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,I
wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

[Chorus:]
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause

[Repeat Chorus]
So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight
He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing,
don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into..

Drew looks at me,
I fake a smile so he won't see.

i'm feeling awful. i mean seriously.
gotta get back to study now.
cast everything aside. and cherry, u must concentrate now.

ps: i checked out my lit assignment. i did it badly. didn't turn out well as i expected. so damn sad over it. :'(

been procrastinating since like yesterday. and i'm so dead.
CHERRY YOU MUST STUDY NOW!!!!!!! lord.

and btw, i got hooked on this song:
realize by Colby Caillat. =D


V1:] Take time to realize,
That your warmth is.
Crashing down on in.
Take time to realize,
That I am on your side
Didn't I, Didn't I tell you.
But I can't spell it out for you,
No it's never gonna be that simple
No I cant spell it out for you

[C:] If you just realize what I just realized,
Then we'd be perfect for each other
And will never find another
Just realized what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder if We missed out on each other now.

[V2:] Take time to realize
Oh-oh I'm on your sideDidn't I, didn't I tell you.
Take time to realize
This all can pass you by..
Didn't I tell you
But I can't spell it out for you,
No its never gonna be that simple
No I can't spell it out for you.
[C:] If you just realized what I just realized
Then we'd be perfect for each other
Then we'd never find another
Just realized what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder if
We missed out on each other now.

[V3:] It's not always the same
No it's never the same
If you don't feel it to.
If you meet me half way
If you would meet me half way.
It could be the same for you.

[C:] If you just realized what I just realized
Then we'd be perfect for each other
Then we'd never find another
Just realized what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder
Just realized what I just realized
OoOoOOo
Missed out on each other now
Missed out on each other now

Attn:

i feel awful for screwing my previous 3 papers.
i was hoping to do well for the paper that i sat for yesterday.
did well for my coursework. and i thought if i put in helllots more effort for finals, then mayb i can secure an a. but who knows the paper was like superblyholly difficult. and all the topics that i just glanced through (cos i've no interests in those topics) were out. and i was really so not happy over it okie. sien. didn't even know what craps to write. whatever it is, really hope i can passsssss all the 5 papers, all of 'em..

Missey me will be going back to KUCHING on 28.04.2008. monday. in 2 weeks' time to be exact. 2 WEEKSSSSS.
can't wait to hang out with frens who are in kch. and to qi, i saw ur msg in msn. u leaving soon too right? hopefully we can catch up b4 u depart.

i can't wait for the yet to be disclosed trip in a less than a week's time. cant wait people.
counting my days.
3 down, left 2 papers for finals. one on the 15th and one on 23rd.
yeah i know another paper on 23rd yet i still daring enough to enjoy and chill and have fun before that. reason is i'm running out of time and there's roughly a week in between so might as well grap the chance.

and mrS and mdmY coming over on 25.4. =D

and i cant wait for my trip in may!! yahoooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!
yeah. not going there on 3.5 but instead 15.5 (fingers crossed!!) cos salma M and wanpeng bigmomma are coming to kuching early may and i'm the host. ;)
and mdmY was saying that she wants to get ready and all that so best is go on 15th.
but we'll see. there might be some changes too. but hopefully mogamoga everything jadi lah.

till then, enjoy a wonderful w/ends everyone.

ps: hope urs arent as bad as mine.
so much readings to do. revision. bah!
and i finally deleted the number off from my contactlist.
ironically, i still keep some of the msges that * sent me. cos why?
cos they hv the sentimental values and i seriously can't bring myself to deleting them.
i realized i just need to go on. and not caring so much about helllotsa things.
and to treasure people that i've around me and to enjoy my life to the fullest whilst i can.

life's like bubbles.

how do u feel when you are ripped off your privacy?

something happened to me today.
something valuable to me, something which i am pretty much, well, very particular with was taken away from me without MY PERMISSION.

and i'm seriously very not happy about it.

bimbos are therefore bimbos.

some friends are made for life;

some aren't.

some are your true friends;

some aren't.

these are just the two people that i met;

in one or two of the phases in my life.

i just need to forget them;

regardless of how important they used to be to me and

to just go on with my life.

and to you,

i'm so not gonna be bothered;

by any means,

any ways,

anymore.

whatever happens to me;

wherever i go,

whatever i do,

shall not be your problem;

shall not be your concerns.

after all,

it has never been your priorities nor concerns anways.

so,

why bother right?

you keep telling me yours truly is your bestie,

whenever there's mia,

you protest.

and demand to know

my whereabouts, and

the deepshits i have to go through.

years ago,

after that incident,

i vowed not to get involve in any of your r/s,

though it has never been and will never be

my concern.

whatever it is now,

whatever happens in the future,

whatever that is related to you,

shall not be a concern to me.

in retrospect,

this is one of the many lessons,

that i learnt.

thanks for showing to me,

how a * friend you could be.

despites the years

we've known each other.

whatever it is,

don't * blame me.

this is what you want and ask for.

there lies a hope,

a hope

to

meet a better someone;

a truthful,

sincere someone;

someone who treasure the bonded friendship;

a someone;

whom i can call-

a true friend.

just when i was so disappointed with this friend of mine,

while writing these out,

and i thought,

i shouldn't be so agitated and disapointed of the past friendship i had with this close friend of mine,

cos there are still so many good friends that i've.

and speaking of which,

one of my besties comes online

just when i thought of her and others.

to

the friends who are far apart;

carrie,

clarameimei

siewwen,

(names are in alphabetical orders, to show that i don't beratsebelah.l0L)

and many others,

whose names i didn't disclose here,

you guys are the best.

i know how shitty i'm as a friend,

no msges,

no calls,

no emails,

but,

you guys are close to my heart.

as simple as it may sounds,
there's always a cause for everything,

for even the simplest decision one makes.

life isn't so bad afterall,

there's always sunshine;

even on the glummest day

=)

MIA

I've been away for as long as i can remember.
busy, peeps.
To compesate what i wanted to blog but didn't have enough time to do so, Here are galore of pictures (taken from the period of one month ago till last week)that are still inside the sd card of which i couldn't care less to transfer it to my notebook.
it took me forever to add in the raspberriescherry.blogspot.com thingy into the pics. mylord i tell u. sometimes really want to quit blogging lah! so time consuming lah wei..

taken at kopitiam during the farewell dinner for a sister.

one of the props that i made for my role for Volpone in Volpone, the play.

and behind was my script! muahaha. cleber lah me. wtf

amongst the random scrips that i prepared just in case i lupa. and i was so dependent on them that day cos was too nervous!

my fake necklaces, bracelets, rings. so sohai. wtf l0L

the garlic breads that i baked for the sister (she was missing it, so i baked for her) before she left for kl. miss her heaps!

pic taken in Flame, the steamboat restaurant.

one of the yummylicious fresh mussells that i had at the traders hotel. miss it still. =(
was there for a buffet dinner with another 2 friends.

the lengzhai waiter at traders hotel (i wasnt really sure whether he's lengzhai or not lah. but he does look good from afar. l0L)

sex on the beach (yeah i know wtf.) that i had at the lounge of the hotel. don't really like it.

something i had for dinner at nandos. on the day i fell down.

smiling happily though my foot hurts like hell.

followed by dessert at swensen's before we left for a movie.




mosquitoes bites. cis. this is only part of it. another zillions bites on other parts of my body.


lunchie at secret recipe with sarah after class. the spaghetti was ok. but i like the beef meatballs.

followed with choc walnut cake moments later after we shopped a bit.


taken last thursday, on the last day of class. when all of us had a farewell cum class gathering lunch to attend. the next 8 pictures or so are the pictures taken during the gathering session with my coursemates.

with shelby, (just in case u guys wondering why she looks like mixed she is okie-she's half scottish half chinese.)the one who made us small tiny card/note on vday. (yeah i know i lupa take the pic and post it up as promised. sorry lah okie)


with bigmomma, wanpeng.


from orientation till now. gonna miss you guys, people.


the reversi by coincidence.

zaza! =)

ratisya. =)


christopher and limey. =)


with Fa. =)

i had to attend my last ko-k meeting later in the day. below are the two pictures taken before i went off to the meeting.
this is one of the landmarks in usm btw, was never bothered to take pictures of it not until i walked past the area and decided to snap a few shots that day.

annie. :)

chiong! :)


ELLS 05/06' batch. with a few absentees. gonna miss u guys heaps.


the preserved brain that i happened to see when i walked past the exhibition area. they were packing up the stuffs as the exhibition was over and i happened to walk pass the area so i took like million of pictures of this bottled up brain thingy. wtf.

coming up next, are the pictures taken last thursday night and fri.


dinner at friday's. i had tacos.

i saw this restaurant months ago when kevin pintpoint it to me. and back then i didn't notice that the whole restaurant looks like this (pictures below) not until that night when i finally took notice of it! holy shiet.

toilet bowls are everywhere.
u sit on it. while enjoying ur meals.

and u eat from it/them. how lovely. l0L toilet bowls concept restaurant; all ranging from toilet bowls to sinks. i wonder how the cutlery looks like. could it be a brush or something? toilet brush ah? l0L

really cute right. gonna give it a try before i go back! =)

lunchie at subway on friday

what we had for tea last friday at starbucks: noir! miss it!

something something pasta i had at pastasia on monday during a nightout with Salma M. it was nice. but a bit too oily.

the appetizer we had. bruchetta. not so nice. very biasa i feel.


apparently, they (pastasia) have a new range of menu. i think they take out the thai cuisine or something. (used to be a mixture of italian+thai cuisine). i went there with my roommate for chapgohmeh dinner. and back then the food was really.. not that delicious i would say. and i even told her that i'm not gonna go back there again although i love the mussels i had for my mussles pasta! (BUT i went back again with Salma M. on monday cause that girl wanted to have a try only to find out they have this new menu and stuffs. but still the waiters/waitresses right, still damn membencikan ok. we were taking our time eating and stuffs, makan a bit, talk a bit. then right, still have food left on the plate, we were just taking breaks from eating, and then right, there'll be these waitresses/waitress coming over, asking us whether we'r done yet etc etc so they can take the plates away. they can't wait for you to finish ur food one. they can't wait to take away the plates and all that! the same thing happened when i went with my room mate. if they really want people to go back there again and makan, they seriously need to do something! either that or they would have to buy more plates lah. so that they don't have to rush ppl while people are eating. cis!)

anyways,
the last 3 pics were taken during chapgohmeh.

~the end~

gotta get back to study. take care people.