stupid

guess what?
missey me went to see a dentist. and guess what?
i had to spend like freaking rm130 on my bloody teeth! fuck.

god knows what i was eating yesterday and somehow some residues of the food or whatnot got stucked between my lower front teeth. so i brushed my teeth routinely and from time to time to make sure residue no more ok.

then right, this morning i felt so awkward because they irritated me a lot. and i really didn't know what to do. so i decided to go see dentist after the movie (watched rendition with salma & wanpeng) because if i were to wait until monday, i'm so gonna be so restless can.
so the moment i stepped into the clinic, i asked the clinic assistant:

'hello, may i know how much does filling cost?'
'that one ah.. i don't know. you have to ask dr.'
'ok. consultation usually how much?'
'you ask doctor.'
'so meaning i GOT to see the dr personally to know all the prices lah?'
'yes.'
'give me your ic'


in my mind - 'YOU IDIOT. EVERYTHING u also don't know.'
somemore right, she's like expression-less. STONED face.
some more no communication skills. how to serve customers like that.

moments later..
i went into the room and asked the dentist:
'can please check out my LOWER front teeth or not. it's like got something there."
and right he checked and he gave me a mirror and asked me to have a look and said
' look, your UPPER front teeth rotten already. between your two big front teeth."
'WHAT THE FUCK?! REALLY AH?! SHITSHIT. HOW COME I DIDN'T KNOW! OH MYLORD!'
'yeap. it starts rotting from behind. that's why u didn't notice'
'shit, this is really serious. fuck. but before that, just check my lower front teeth can. it irritates me.'
'oh, this one no big deal one. just got a bit DIRT. can just brush it off.'
'but i tried what. but still cannot. so meaning i just need to brush my teeth then it'll come off lah?'haiya, i tried brushing it off already. still cannot.'
'ok, but no worries for that, that one can do the scaling one. that one not so serious. but your upper teeth one more serious. you can do the filling first, then mayb next time do the scaling/air polishing'
'okie. so tell me how much does filling cost?'
'forty'
'scaling/airpolishing?'
'fifty.'
'alright. do you guys accept credit card? cause i don't have enough cash with me now." *blushed*
'credit card.. nope. only accept cash.'
'alright. then give me a minute. i go withdraw money. i WILL come back. just give me a minute.'

-so i went off to the ground floor and get some cash.
i only had like sixty with me cause missey me spent like close to rm70 before that.

so when i returned to the clinic-
'so i'm gonna do the filling first ok?'
'yeah sure. wht colour is the filling?'
'i'll try to get the same colour as your teeth. but it will be slightly different.. a bit only.'
'mylord. look, i really don't want to look ugly okie dr. it's my two middle front teeth. i want to look prettyy. so pleasee!' (shit, you guys have no idea how sad i was knowing my teeth are rotting ok. ROTTING. my two FRONT TEETH some more. it's so damn embarrassing can. if it's other tooth, i still can accept it. but definitely not somewhere visible can.."
(laugh) ' yeah i'll try. don't worry.'
' you must ha. must. must make sure it looks nice and wouldn't look funny and awkward.'
'i'll. don't worry. now lie down and relax.'

so probably about 20 mins or more later. i lost track of time.

'ok, it's done. here (hand me the mirror), check it out.'
'h'm.. okies. but yi.. how come my lower teeth feels so awkward kot. like got something like that. like sharp sharp like that.'
'cos last time you have DIRTS stucking between your tooth, like you know the BATHROOM's floor ..' before he could even finish i said,
'yeah i know. like got DIRTS stucking there then will become smooth cos it takes up the holes between my teeth.'
'yeap, you got that right.'
(and i still checkin out my teeth).
'look, here's a model of teeth. it costs more than one thousand ringgit cos it's modelled and shapped according to human's teeth. so here's the place where you feel as though there's something sharp, now try to touch it.'
i touched and said 'yeah. okies.'
'so yeah, it's all clean now. so it's normal for you to feel that way.'
'k.'
'so is the filling ok?
'yeah i think so.'
don't eat anything solid ok.'
'ok.'
'just for tonight only.'
'okies. thankyou.' =D
'you're welcome and yeah.. happy new year alright.'

'shit. i forgotten to ask the dr this. can you help me ask the dr how long does the filling last? will come off one or not?'
'as time goes by, it'll loh.'
'shit. then if anything happens again, can come back here and check not?'
'can. so dr charges you 80 for fillings and..'
'yeah i know, rm130 altogether. here you are.'

and didn't say THANKYOU even.
hello, you're just an assistant ok. you're just a clerk. be more POLITE.

so i walked out, feeling stupid and SAD and fucked up because missey me is rm130 POORER.
i wash my teeth so much. and i thought it was alright all these while.
i just did one filling last september in kch and that dentist didn't even bother to check the rest of my teeth okie. because why? he had a lot of customers. and i didn't make appointment. i just went in and waited for hours until he took some time to attend me. and the reason i didn't make appointment was because the assistant told me that my appoinment will be in FEBRUARY 2008. i'm so gonna die if i were to wait til february. cos that time my tooth. my big tooth behind it. the one you use to chew meats MEATS was rotting. and it was sort of like the emergency case.

i've no idea why my teeth is 'wearing out'. i've been dutifuly, faithfully and diligently washing my teeth so much. i wash it everytime before i go out. after meals. etc.
still one by one is rotting. stupid teeth.
and i think by the time i reach 26 years old, i'll have to use full whole complete set of denture liaw can. sigh. sad sad.
must be because i ate too much of sweets and candies and keropoks last time when i was a kid til teenagers. must be lah.
stupid me.
fucklah.

so anyways, enough babblings.
rendition was superb. i like it so much.
it proves that how the us has the super authority over someone's right. they can just eradicate and bingo you just like that. finish you off and swipe clean the history and records of you and your identity.

oklah, missey me gtg now.
leaving at 7.30am tmr.
damn tired. had such a long day today. and i still have to wash my lingerie and socks later. arghhh!