how does it feel?

to have everything all to youself?
i wish i've my own room; my own space; my own freedom. to do the things i want.

as i'm typing out these, i'm actually bearing with the pangs of hunger.
for once, wouldn't it be nice if i stayed in hostel?
i would have gone to ahhooi and have my dinner there with my ex-neighbourie and ex-roomie (if she's not to lazy to walk.)

it's drizzling outside.
i recalled back the time i had back in hostel.
i remember right, everyday, 6pm sharp, me and my neighbourie would walk all the way down to another hostel's cafeteria (which has the best chinese stall ever) to have our dinner.
the food is cheap and yummy. ok, perhaps a little bit too oily. but still acceptable.

and food is my main problem here since i moved in.
in my first year (first year in the new place). there was the four of us who shared and took turns to cook lunches and dinners. that went on for like a year.
and starting from this semester, we decided not to share.
i personally didn't want to share because i found out i eat out most of the time so it's a bit pointless to share.

the place where i'm staying now is a shophouse.
there are like 5 coffeeshops below where i stay.

the first one: variety of choices on the day-economy rice, and some other stalls selling mees and etc. but all these stalls opened only till noon i think. then there'll be another stall selling thai food. thai food was like heaven previously. but it's getting sucker and sucker although the prices are very reasonable and cheap. the last time i had it was the nasi goreng seafood. i couldn't even bring myself to finish to whole pack of rice. taste-less. and as for the economy rice, although they have the widest range of dishes to choose from, rather cheap, yet i find myself got sick of the food. because i've been tapau-ing a lot from the stall till i can get the dish by closing my eyes.

the second one: newly opened not too long ago. i find the food sucks. i first tried their duck rice. it was suck. so i never wanted to go back for the second time. but somehow i went with some friends who wanted to try it out. and i had the ginger fried rice. it tasted ok. but my friend found a fly in her rice. ok, nvm about hygiene. but still, i don't find the food that amusing.

the third one: vegetarian shop. which i wouldn't want to eat. unless i've no choice. i don't think i ever taupau anything from there this whole sememester. not to mention about the people who work there. rude. and gadoh 24/7. somemore say is vegetarian. you can find the most retarded and superbly rude people here. the mercedes will come everyday, early in the morning, honkhonk for a couple of times, like 2-3 times. i don't know why. i find myself knowing their everyday routine because my room is the last room and is just inches away from the their kitchen. no offence to vegetarian food (i like the vegetarian kolomee in kenyalang market ok!)but i seriously don't find the food interesting.

the fouth one: the shop went bancrupt. before i knew that there's a economy rice stall in the first shop, i used to tapau the economy rice for lunch for almost everyday since they started the business this semester. the business only managed to survive for a couple of months. very pathetic huh? but i think they deserved it. =p and i seriously think i was the only loyal customer back then. i can even memorize the food they have everyday. i got so sick of the food in the end. and decided to switch. and plus, it was only rm2.5 or less(i think)when i had my first taupau there. and they jacked up the prices each time i made my visits there. untill there was a point i paid like rm4 something for the nearly the same dishes i got (like every normal day, since they don't have much choice). no point. like i said, i was the only one they could 'chop' to sustain their business. but i'm smart. your food sucks. and u charged me a lot for which i don't consider deserve to, based on the portion i got. so tata. i resoluted to the first shop instead.

the fifth one: i havn't eaten anything from this shop since last semester. i find the food sucks too.

i've learnt not to be picky on food since the day i got so fed up with the limited choices of food that i have.
and basically will just eat anything just to make sure my tummy is fed when i'm hungry.
as easy as that.
there are times when i got so sick of the food that i prefer just to gallop down a mug of milk with some biscuits.

i cook. at times. with the limited space in the fridge. i rarely buy vege; except cucumbers which didn't really take up a lot of space. somemore very easy to cook. i don't buy almost anything that needed to be stored up in the fridge.

when i got so sick of outside food, i cook. sometimes. ginger with eggs in particular.one of my fav dishes back home. and i cook cucumber with oyster sauce and ginger. have some rice. then there goes my lunch or dinner.
but sometimes there are like tonnes of people queing up in kitchen, taking turns to cook. and that makes you feel so fed up want to cook either. so i basically cook when there's no one in the kitchen or when nobody is at home. or when i already booked a place before that.
and this explains why i rarely heat up my leftover dish, be it maggi or the ginger with eggs or the cucumber. because i'm too lazy to wait for the stove to be available. or by the time it's cleared and available, i'm already suffering gastric. so care not, just whallop it. janji my tummy get filled.

sometimes i wish mcD and kfc and whatnot is just a foot away. mcD is actually quite near my place but then i still need to walk. and with the raining days like this, i'm too malas to walk all the way there. i'm malas i know. then i shouldn't be complaining.

it has passed the peak hour. i shall now go cook my maggi. finally.

that explains why i miss home and mdmY so much at times.