S.O.S.

pardon me.

the title S.O.S for this entry, doesn't stand for Shop of Shoes.

eversince i got back from the vacation,

this is the kind of comments given to me, most of the time:

'hey, u've gained some (yeah, SOME) weights."

'i noticed that u've become slightly (yeah, SLIGHTLY) fatter."

it wasn't some nor slightly okies. so stop flattering me.

i feel flattered. though i know god-damn-well that i've gained a few kgs. more than what i could imagine.

this is really too much okies.

i'm so stress.

i'm so malu of the fact that i look so horrible right now.

nvm about the pimples which can't stop popping out from my blody face eversince cny and the lefover scarssss all across my blody face;

but i dooo realllyyy mind aboutt the fatss.

omfgosh.

and i've got tanned and dark.

and now although 2 months have past, i'm still so superbly dark.

f***!

how can i get rid of the excessive 5-6 kgs?!!!

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..!!!

no kidding i'm telling y'guys.

my self-esteem is going down the stream.

i need to eat less.

i need to withold my cravings for chocolates.

i need to exercise more. n complain less. but hell. i dont have time for all those workouts okies. so this one shall then be crossed out.

i need to refrain myself from eating large portions and extra meals. and stop eating those biscuits.

need to cut down the carbs. damnittttt.

i need to be determined.

i need help, people.

HELP.