betrayed.

tonight again, i looked at that particular pic. again and again.
and keep thinking. why.

we were once, so close to each other.
we were once, good friends.
how can a picture of that, determines the level of our friendship.
i know.
but somehow, i feel betrayed.
and perhaps, that's the reason why the gift was left unattended for as long as i remember.
there were moments of awkwardness during catch ups over msn.
even the simplest i miss you! sounded so sham and deceitful.
did i really missed?

it hurts when you find out that a person who meant so much to you never really treasure you
and whatever you believed before this, was and had long snarled and tangled into a bun of scepticism.
i'm holding on to the only belief. that that friendship of ours was there, before.
and i'm glad i met you. although i may not know you as much as i thought i know, but at least i'm still holding on strongly, those memories that we once shared together.
we parted, and we move on.

on a lighter note,
at least i've bunch of many others,
who treasure me as much as i treasure them.
these, are the people who are called genuine friends.

60

60 more days to go.
le sigh..
i need to start joltin down stuff.
i need to start appreciate the remaining 60 days.

just back from watching harry potter.
albus dumbledore passed away. :'( ( i knew it was an ending for him in Harry Potter and The Half Blood Prince but still, it was such a sad ending for dumbledore!)
and now i just got a sms from 4thsissoh saying yasmin ahmad passed away earlier!!!!!!!! noooooo!!!!!! sigh.
it's a great loss to the country. :'(
first it was michael jackson, then dumbledore, then yasmin ahmad. whywhywhy. why must all these legends all be gone!
restinpeace,great people.

Tsk

sour people say sour stuff.
tsktsk.
you have my utmost sympathy!

'Things break but can be fixed. There are more important parts of life..'

24th

the bestestgreatest birthday gift ever, ---

is the time when i can celebrate my birthdays with them by my side.

today's such an unlucky day for me.
firstly i had to deal with the clueless guy at the jabatan.
then now, i have to deal with one of the budget airlines.
fml. really.

i think i have to pay again for the unconfirmed booking cos aint sure if my payment has been transferred. called up and asked and they asked me to wait til 1705. one hour+ to go. yet it seems like forever.
if the money has been transferred. sayonara to my rm256. how many kolomees i can buy with rm256. =( then meaning i am so fucked up. paid so much just for the two exactly same tics.

this is what happened, i logon to my account and make the booking, and whilst i was trying to make my payment, it says error. so fine.
i relogin and went through the same process again. cos i thought my previous booking was cancelled. i know i'm stupid. so then this time, after 3 attempts (all which says error!), finally i could get the tics and all. but with an extra rm50 in total. so fts i said. what can i do right. i had to book it anyways and if i keep procrastinating, the tics price could be different again.
then after making the payment and stuff, i went to see my itinerary through the account and there are two bloody bookings!!!!!!! one is in confirmed status while the other isn't! fml. really fml.

then i called up the call centre which costs me another rm4.50 (with some patience and anxieties) to see if they can cancell the unconfirmed booking for me. and no was the answer and was told that i have to wait til 17:05 to see if the booking will be automatically removed. and if the payment has been transferred, then fml.
sometimes i really prefer to do things manually, even if it is more inconvenient and troublesome.
double the price. dahlah wasted extra rm50. the first tic that i initially getting was rm85, and the second was rm110.

if that happens again, i'm gonna be so damn sure to go back to that specific section to check my itenerary from there. so that the history wouldn't repeat itself. wtf.
damn worried now.
fts. don't ever ask me to book airtics not with the stupid connection, ever.
2 more bookings to go. wtf.
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh :'(