how do u feel when you are ripped off your privacy?

something happened to me today.
something valuable to me, something which i am pretty much, well, very particular with was taken away from me without MY PERMISSION.

and i'm seriously very not happy about it.

bimbos are therefore bimbos.

some friends are made for life;

some aren't.

some are your true friends;

some aren't.

these are just the two people that i met;

in one or two of the phases in my life.

i just need to forget them;

regardless of how important they used to be to me and

to just go on with my life.

and to you,

i'm so not gonna be bothered;

by any means,

any ways,

anymore.

whatever happens to me;

wherever i go,

whatever i do,

shall not be your problem;

shall not be your concerns.

after all,

it has never been your priorities nor concerns anways.

so,

why bother right?

you keep telling me yours truly is your bestie,

whenever there's mia,

you protest.

and demand to know

my whereabouts, and

the deepshits i have to go through.

years ago,

after that incident,

i vowed not to get involve in any of your r/s,

though it has never been and will never be

my concern.

whatever it is now,

whatever happens in the future,

whatever that is related to you,

shall not be a concern to me.

in retrospect,

this is one of the many lessons,

that i learnt.

thanks for showing to me,

how a * friend you could be.

despites the years

we've known each other.

whatever it is,

don't * blame me.

this is what you want and ask for.

there lies a hope,

a hope

to

meet a better someone;

a truthful,

sincere someone;

someone who treasure the bonded friendship;

a someone;

whom i can call-

a true friend.

just when i was so disappointed with this friend of mine,

while writing these out,

and i thought,

i shouldn't be so agitated and disapointed of the past friendship i had with this close friend of mine,

cos there are still so many good friends that i've.

and speaking of which,

one of my besties comes online

just when i thought of her and others.

to

the friends who are far apart;

carrie,

clarameimei

siewwen,

(names are in alphabetical orders, to show that i don't beratsebelah.l0L)

and many others,

whose names i didn't disclose here,

you guys are the best.

i know how shitty i'm as a friend,

no msges,

no calls,

no emails,

but,

you guys are close to my heart.

as simple as it may sounds,
there's always a cause for everything,

for even the simplest decision one makes.

life isn't so bad afterall,

there's always sunshine;

even on the glummest day

=)

MIA

I've been away for as long as i can remember.
busy, peeps.
To compesate what i wanted to blog but didn't have enough time to do so, Here are galore of pictures (taken from the period of one month ago till last week)that are still inside the sd card of which i couldn't care less to transfer it to my notebook.
it took me forever to add in the raspberriescherry.blogspot.com thingy into the pics. mylord i tell u. sometimes really want to quit blogging lah! so time consuming lah wei..

taken at kopitiam during the farewell dinner for a sister.

one of the props that i made for my role for Volpone in Volpone, the play.

and behind was my script! muahaha. cleber lah me. wtf

amongst the random scrips that i prepared just in case i lupa. and i was so dependent on them that day cos was too nervous!

my fake necklaces, bracelets, rings. so sohai. wtf l0L

the garlic breads that i baked for the sister (she was missing it, so i baked for her) before she left for kl. miss her heaps!

pic taken in Flame, the steamboat restaurant.

one of the yummylicious fresh mussells that i had at the traders hotel. miss it still. =(
was there for a buffet dinner with another 2 friends.

the lengzhai waiter at traders hotel (i wasnt really sure whether he's lengzhai or not lah. but he does look good from afar. l0L)

sex on the beach (yeah i know wtf.) that i had at the lounge of the hotel. don't really like it.

something i had for dinner at nandos. on the day i fell down.

smiling happily though my foot hurts like hell.

followed by dessert at swensen's before we left for a movie.




mosquitoes bites. cis. this is only part of it. another zillions bites on other parts of my body.


lunchie at secret recipe with sarah after class. the spaghetti was ok. but i like the beef meatballs.

followed with choc walnut cake moments later after we shopped a bit.


taken last thursday, on the last day of class. when all of us had a farewell cum class gathering lunch to attend. the next 8 pictures or so are the pictures taken during the gathering session with my coursemates.

with shelby, (just in case u guys wondering why she looks like mixed she is okie-she's half scottish half chinese.)the one who made us small tiny card/note on vday. (yeah i know i lupa take the pic and post it up as promised. sorry lah okie)


with bigmomma, wanpeng.


from orientation till now. gonna miss you guys, people.


the reversi by coincidence.

zaza! =)

ratisya. =)


christopher and limey. =)


with Fa. =)

i had to attend my last ko-k meeting later in the day. below are the two pictures taken before i went off to the meeting.
this is one of the landmarks in usm btw, was never bothered to take pictures of it not until i walked past the area and decided to snap a few shots that day.

annie. :)

chiong! :)


ELLS 05/06' batch. with a few absentees. gonna miss u guys heaps.


the preserved brain that i happened to see when i walked past the exhibition area. they were packing up the stuffs as the exhibition was over and i happened to walk pass the area so i took like million of pictures of this bottled up brain thingy. wtf.

coming up next, are the pictures taken last thursday night and fri.


dinner at friday's. i had tacos.

i saw this restaurant months ago when kevin pintpoint it to me. and back then i didn't notice that the whole restaurant looks like this (pictures below) not until that night when i finally took notice of it! holy shiet.

toilet bowls are everywhere.
u sit on it. while enjoying ur meals.

and u eat from it/them. how lovely. l0L toilet bowls concept restaurant; all ranging from toilet bowls to sinks. i wonder how the cutlery looks like. could it be a brush or something? toilet brush ah? l0L

really cute right. gonna give it a try before i go back! =)

lunchie at subway on friday

what we had for tea last friday at starbucks: noir! miss it!

something something pasta i had at pastasia on monday during a nightout with Salma M. it was nice. but a bit too oily.

the appetizer we had. bruchetta. not so nice. very biasa i feel.


apparently, they (pastasia) have a new range of menu. i think they take out the thai cuisine or something. (used to be a mixture of italian+thai cuisine). i went there with my roommate for chapgohmeh dinner. and back then the food was really.. not that delicious i would say. and i even told her that i'm not gonna go back there again although i love the mussels i had for my mussles pasta! (BUT i went back again with Salma M. on monday cause that girl wanted to have a try only to find out they have this new menu and stuffs. but still the waiters/waitresses right, still damn membencikan ok. we were taking our time eating and stuffs, makan a bit, talk a bit. then right, still have food left on the plate, we were just taking breaks from eating, and then right, there'll be these waitresses/waitress coming over, asking us whether we'r done yet etc etc so they can take the plates away. they can't wait for you to finish ur food one. they can't wait to take away the plates and all that! the same thing happened when i went with my room mate. if they really want people to go back there again and makan, they seriously need to do something! either that or they would have to buy more plates lah. so that they don't have to rush ppl while people are eating. cis!)

anyways,
the last 3 pics were taken during chapgohmeh.

~the end~

gotta get back to study. take care people.

so many things, so little time.

i've got 2 assignments and 3 freaking tests instead of 2 due next week. mylord.

yet i've been procrastinating and going out so much so that i'm feeling too exhausted by the time i sit infront of my lappie to start doing my assignment(s).

and i wanted to blog and i had no time to. =(

have a nice w/ends guys! woot!

ps: i watched Ah Long Ptd Ltd this afternoon. gooooo! goooooo watchhhhhhhhhh!! superbly funny i tell you. it made me forget allllllllllll about my assignments & the tests. so nice. so happy. i laughed til i thought i was going to die. wtf. so go watch lah.

musing

dadadarling is officially gone for half a year.. T_T.. miss her still!!!!! arghhh.. T_T dadadarling. i love you sooooooooo....sooooo muchhhhh.. !!!! T_T and miss you heaps too..

i seriously re-considering to get a new pet when i'm back in kch.. but we'll see..

and today's exactly a month to one of the days i look most forward to. 17.4. i will blog about it later when the time comes. =D

a bit of changes made to the entry that i made long long time ago;
my most look forward dates would be:
15/4
17/4
23/4
25/4
3/5

it seems like april will be such a happening month for me. and not to mention a tiring month.
gotta do my packing in a few weeks' time.. say like 2 weeks' time? hate it.

hiaya. wanted to post up some pics we took during an outing with salma M. on thurs- (the day when i fell down! celaka!)but i still havn't add in raspberriescherry.blogspot.com thingy onto the pics. so mayb next time?

missey me bore with the excruciating pains and limped all the way throughout the night. sigh. having had to walk that way was a nightmare to me! i mean seriously! imagine this, how a 3-5 mins walk became 10-13 mins.. but still, nothing can stop me from going out according to what me and salma M. had planned earlier. and how i treasure and miss the company i had that night. salma M. luv u so! =D thanks for everything! but ofcos, too bad bigmomma w.peng couldnt make it.
dinners at nandos. dessert at swensen. food food food. wheee =D the sight of food makes me goes dinkdoink and jiwang sia. =D

two more weeks to go...and my classes are all done.. T_T
two more assignments and two more tests to go.. and that basically sum up everything for this whole semester.. =( i'm so gonna miss my coursemates.. my lecturers.. and friends and people i met throughout my 3 years stint in pg. T_T (speaking of which, i think i prefer to study than to work. probably i should study again huh? h'm...) and i'll too, miss all the sisters and saints that i came to know about in these few years' time in pg. gonna miss the saturday campus home meeting. =(

super emo now.

Bubbly makes me bubbly. =D

i'm feeling bubbly.

i fell down. badly. on thurs. aside from gettin several bruises, my bones- cuboid (or what i also dont know) and another bone were 'set apart'. so i limp now. =(

this is what i got when i told one of male frens that incident:

* says (3:16 PM):
now u can train yrself to be gentle

* says (3:17 PM):
walk graciously

so *, are u trying to say that i'm too cholo when i walk? T_T

_______________

T_T

and right, one my closest male friends said i'm like a guy. i'm cho lo (not gentle). and blablabla.

so extra T_T
_______________

am i really that bad after all? cis. =p

i'm just being me okie. and i'm anti manja/manja-ness. so don't expect me to behave super manja or whatnots. and right, i fell down cause i didn't know there was a drain. so it was a matter of carelessness. and for the second statement, i am not like a guy, i was just merely saying 'uhm. ok. yeah. uhuh. ok', i don't talk much, doesn't mean i don't care or whatnots. and seriously that doesn't justify that i'm so macho or man-ly! h'rmp.

but i'm seriously a very dull person.

i can listen to the same old songs (of not more than 6 perhaps?) over and over again for a semester.

and since i got hooked on bubbly now, it has become my latest obsession. and it's the only song i'm listening to right now. yes, when i mean i'm listening to it, it's in repeating mode all the time. and i can never get bored of it. woot ! =D

a bit tired now.
and constant cramps on my right leg drive me nuts.

blog next time.

sorted out.

we are able to sort things out finally.

"Happiness is a state of a mind."