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xmas and cravings

it's xmas eve. and guess what?
mcd and wendy's aren't open.
i cant have my sundae/ frosty float!
the situation..is indeed very different from what we have back home.
24/7 throughout the year sure available.
wuhuhuhu

foodfoodfood

2nd Anniversary

it's Ada's 2nd Anniversary today..

Ada darhling, u're still greatly deeply missed..

betrayed.

tonight again, i looked at that particular pic. again and again.
and keep thinking. why.

we were once, so close to each other.
we were once, good friends.
how can a picture of that, determines the level of our friendship.
i know.
but somehow, i feel betrayed.
and perhaps, that's the reason why the gift was left unattended for as long as i remember.
there were moments of awkwardness during catch ups over msn.
even the simplest i miss you! sounded so sham and deceitful.
did i really missed?

it hurts when you find out that a person who meant so much to you never really treasure you
and whatever you believed before this, was and had long snarled and tangled into a bun of scepticism.
i'm holding on to the only belief. that that friendship of ours was there, before.
and i'm glad i met you. although i may not know you as much as i thought i know, but at least i'm still holding on strongly, those memories that we once shared together.
we parted, and we move on.

on a lighter note,
at least i've bunch of many others,
who treasure me as much as i treasure them.
these, are the people who are called genuine friends.

60

60 more days to go.
le sigh..
i need to start joltin down stuff.
i need to start appreciate the remaining 60 days.

just back from watching harry potter.
albus dumbledore passed away. :'( ( i knew it was an ending for him in Harry Potter and The Half Blood Prince but still, it was such a sad ending for dumbledore!)
and now i just got a sms from 4thsissoh saying yasmin ahmad passed away earlier!!!!!!!! noooooo!!!!!! sigh.
it's a great loss to the country. :'(
first it was michael jackson, then dumbledore, then yasmin ahmad. whywhywhy. why must all these legends all be gone!
restinpeace,great people.

Tsk

sour people say sour stuff.
tsktsk.
you have my utmost sympathy!

'Things break but can be fixed. There are more important parts of life..'

24th

the bestestgreatest birthday gift ever, ---

is the time when i can celebrate my birthdays with them by my side.

today's such an unlucky day for me.
firstly i had to deal with the clueless guy at the jabatan.
then now, i have to deal with one of the budget airlines.
fml. really.

i think i have to pay again for the unconfirmed booking cos aint sure if my payment has been transferred. called up and asked and they asked me to wait til 1705. one hour+ to go. yet it seems like forever.
if the money has been transferred. sayonara to my rm256. how many kolomees i can buy with rm256. =( then meaning i am so fucked up. paid so much just for the two exactly same tics.

this is what happened, i logon to my account and make the booking, and whilst i was trying to make my payment, it says error. so fine.
i relogin and went through the same process again. cos i thought my previous booking was cancelled. i know i'm stupid. so then this time, after 3 attempts (all which says error!), finally i could get the tics and all. but with an extra rm50 in total. so fts i said. what can i do right. i had to book it anyways and if i keep procrastinating, the tics price could be different again.
then after making the payment and stuff, i went to see my itinerary through the account and there are two bloody bookings!!!!!!! one is in confirmed status while the other isn't! fml. really fml.

then i called up the call centre which costs me another rm4.50 (with some patience and anxieties) to see if they can cancell the unconfirmed booking for me. and no was the answer and was told that i have to wait til 17:05 to see if the booking will be automatically removed. and if the payment has been transferred, then fml.
sometimes i really prefer to do things manually, even if it is more inconvenient and troublesome.
double the price. dahlah wasted extra rm50. the first tic that i initially getting was rm85, and the second was rm110.

if that happens again, i'm gonna be so damn sure to go back to that specific section to check my itenerary from there. so that the history wouldn't repeat itself. wtf.
damn worried now.
fts. don't ever ask me to book airtics not with the stupid connection, ever.
2 more bookings to go. wtf.
arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh :'(

Abuse

i read about the news of a mother who abused her 5-year old son.
and it really saddens me.
brendan and people close to me always say my children will be in... like military camp next time and i'll train them like soldiers. prolly i am always deemed to be a fiece person, particularly when i deal with kids. and i'm sure no kids will like me, too anyways cause i'm not a loving person and i can't just put up a friendly and loving face and play with them or say what cute lah this lah that lah etc. and pretend to be so happy and so love the kids when i'm actually not. i just can't bring myself to doing that.
mayb cos i never liked kids and toddlers. i only love babies. but, when they reach 1 year old.. the love just stop growing. wtf. teramat cute or very obedient toddlers, then lain crita lah okie. that one i sure sayang kau kau.

but then the news came alive and it really touched me. my heart seriously ache when i saw the picture of the back of the boy. mylord, one whole patch of bruises.
and i don't want to go to that extend of abusing my own kids next time. gee. scary. and really kesian that boy!

and and TMR IS MY LAST DAY OF WORK. ok, wait. not tmr. since it's already like 5 mins to 2am, so it's officially MY LAST DAY OF WORK. wtf.

breakkkkkkkkkkk. how i long for this long break. but i guess i'll miss the lovely and helpful coworkers and the times i had while i work. i learnt hellalot of things. and i really have no qualms and regrets at all. i guess i did the right choice. (at least for once in my life, wtf.)

the qi, if u're reading this: i MADE IT!i'm finally done and all through with it!!! =D remember how i was in doubts when i told u this before i took up the offer?? ahhaaha.

but i've got so many things to do, for the next 3 weeks. =(
whatmore to complain when there's no time limit for hellalotof things like sleep, tv, online etc. i can do whatever i want. life's a bliss when i've got unlimited sleep per day. =D

A Decision Made.

i ponder and wonder, is this the right thing to do?
i'm scared.
but i dont have a choice, do i?

cimbclicks.
ihateyouso.sonotefficient.wtflah.
no,i dont want to spend anymore ringgit for all the calls to the hotline and/or make a few more trips to the atm/bank to reset everything!!!!! arghhhh!!!
it's kinda stupid,really.
whats with the online banking if it's so cacated? comonlah.
we thought we could makes our lives easier by having everything done from home, but apparently that's not the case! and we still need to frequent our trips to the bank/atm just to sort out the problem this cimbclicks is giving us. wtfisthisshit, you tell me!
you guys should do something about it! pleaselah. fts.

i got fu at work. fi.
but..but i finally got something done. bliss.

0.02

heartache kaukau.
a crack on the hinge can cost me a lot.
and to have it operated to get it fixed, makes me even more heartache.
why me. why i have to be the 0.02%.

whatturfis that. tell me.

it's officially

2 months, baby.
T.W.O. freaking months just passed just like that. o.0
but 6 more effing weeks to go before i could have my nails painted in red again. sodamnsadcase.
so bah!

i stumbled across something in hk mid last year and have been eyeing for that something since then. and i've finally come across one that i really LOVE just now after close to one freaking year. and now i'm doubting whether should i get it or not... people say we should reward ourselves and pamper ourselves a little by splurging on something really good for ourselves for all the shitty hardwork has already (yet for me) paid off right... but..

is it really that true?

Kuching Photo Hunt

nelsonthebil and i joined the Kuching Photo Hunt on Sunday. If jien and hao are here, would have asked you two to join pun! So yeah, although my group (group 11) did not win, but still, i had a lot of fun, snapping the whole day and meeting a lot of nice people who have the same passion as i am. as the saying goes, birds of a feather flock together. it was fun mingling and hanging out with the group of people who have the same interest as you.

The event lasted the whole day, from 7.30am-9pm. thankedgod, i was not working on monday.

we were divided into around 4 persons per group, and there were more than 10 groups. Each group was chauffeured by the team leader. Each group was then given a set of 25 questions. And all the answers are in pictures form. We were flagged off at 9am. We then went around Kuching to snap the pictures (as the answers) for the questions. Submission for the pictures was at 4.30pm. We went to as far as jong's crocodile farm, pitcher plants garden and semenggoh wildlife centre to get our shoots. (i mean it was great to be able to go such places on opportunity like this. not like we can go there anytime we want after all.) And for the rest of the questions, we scoured around the town area for the answers.

3 of us even walked from gambir fish market to the sarawak state mosque. go figure.

so it was indeed, an adrenaline rushed event as we had to make sure we managed to answer all the questions within the limited time frame that we had. On top of that, we had to sit down, upload the pics by each one of us, select the ones we would like to submit, and then go through all the pics again, just to select the best answer to be submitted in.

Although majority of them, okie, like all of them (i guess) were using nicecanggih dslrs and were equipped with all sorts of accesories and lenses, and i did, indeed feel inferior with my normal compact, but still i am happy with some of my shots. and most importantly it was the experience, exposure and fun that matter the most.

after having our dinner together, there was some photos sharing sessions. i was amazed to see that there are a lot of great photographers out there. and their pics were really really great!!! compared to mine, mine kacang only! and i really love activity/event as such. if got explorace or whatnots, i want to join pun! cos very fun i feel. very challenging!

here are some of the pics!

#1 trying to figure out where the answers should be and which destination should we head to first.

#2 answering the first question.

#3 one of the many random and unrelated shoots that i took.

#4 again, random shots.

#5 so random again.

took this when i was telling the johorian team member that this is kuihjala, one of the tradisional kuihs.

#6 amazed to see so many types of grains.

#7 pitcher plants. one of my fav shots.



#8 my team members.

so anyways, i did have a lot of fun. wheee. and nelsonthebil's group won 3rd prize (each winner was given a binocular (nikon's). 1st-3rd prize all get binoculars lah, different sizes only! and non winners like me, brought back some worthwhile memories and experience.

ouch

this stupid cut had my thumb bled profusely.
and left a couple of bloodstains on papers,books, and my clothes. wtf.

a day later.

senseless moron

was out for confenssions of a shopaholic (am disappointed with the movie- dull storyline; expected more scenes of becky does the shoppings, didnt really like the way she dresses, albeit all these, i was touched by the scene where she turned up at the church for suze's wedding and the hug that reconciled the friendship, and i adore hugh dancy!).

so anyways, we were late for the 8pm movie. there was these 3 inhumane humans who reached the lift before we did and they just bloody let the lift close knowing goddamn well that we were hastily quicken our footsteps to get into the lift too. so nelsonthebil who was ahead of us managed to prevent the door from closing, got into the lift first, followed with 4thsissoh and then me, and guess what?

that stupididiot guy just let the goddamneddoor close and i suspect he didn't even press the door open button. i had just stepped my right foot onto the lift. and the door just close and hit me on my head and arm. nelsonthebil didn't managed to press the button as he too, had just stepped into the lift and was basically giving ways for the two of us to get into the lift. that bloody guy just stood there and let the door close.

hope my what the fuck! could haunt him+the other two forever. cis. so inconsiderate. some more talk like so angmohs like that. angmohs wouldn't be so not gentleman lo. 4thsissoh asked me 'eh, ok anot you.' i said 'partial concussion. pain lah. what else. stupid wan. didnt even press the button wan.' you heard that, atrocious dumbass?

i don't give a shit about how other ppl dress and all that shits, and no offence to whoever who dress up nicely and carry guccis or lvs and whatnots, like seriously. but i really behtahan those ppl who dress up like so keh si, buoyantly and proudly flashing their branded accessories like that yet don't even have manners. so here you go, fycheapos.

anyways, my lousy cacated 3210 or 3120 whatever model it islah, dont matter, has finally decided to die on me. fts cause i need to spend money again. everyone says it's time cos i'm way too outdated and am known to using lousyoldphones, yet i don't feel the need to getting a new phone and pray to God that the phone will be ok tmr so i don't have to spend money to get a new one. wtf.

fastandfurious was awesome! but van diesel is scarry. why does he look so robotic wan. but paul walker, god.. maybe because he (and hugh dancy) has nicee teeth!
why is hugh dancy so cuteeeee. where to find a someone who looks gorgeous and has nice set of teeth like hugh dancy and paul walker!! i am immensely charmed by these two fellas.

may i dream of hugh dancy later when i sleep. wtf.
i only have 3 hours sleep now. shit.